Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Recap Reloaded

Well after a few emails to blogspot, I still can't understand why my recap text was removed from my own personal blog.  The comments still show up in my inbox but the entry text is gone.  Thus, I get to write it all over again.  And if you don't want to hear it, don't read it.  See how simple that is?  And if you want to continue with assholery comments, feel free.  I am all about free speech as long as it is not offensive or inappropriate.

So as I was saying previously, 2011 was a challenge.  I have an alcoholic family member who although has had this issue for decades, he hasn't really been battling the demon.  He has, in reality become more like a willing victim of it....if that is possible or if it even makes sense.  Anyway, this year there have been several developments which have included counselors, police, lawyers, jail time...etc.  You really can't imagine what this disease can do to a family.  Talk about making you feel helpless.  So as the year ended and the new year began, it has gone from worse to almost hopeless.  As a family unit, it is pretty devastating when you are forced to watch someone you love be taken over and taken away from you.  My only hope for 2012 is that I get to meet him again for the first time in 20 years.  It has been that long since I remember him the way I "want" to remember him.  Thanks to all my friends who have been there for me when I needed to chat or needed advice, legal and otherwise.  ;)  And to those of you who actually asked and gave a shit.  It is appreciated.

It is this kind of stuff that puts life into perspective.  Focuses the mind on what is important and what you should just toss aside.  Problem being, tossing shit whether it be physical, mental, personal or otherwise is pretty hard to do even when you want to do it and you know you would be better off.  This is what I mean when I say things like "I feel disconnected" or "unbalanced".  And for those reading, just because you don't write about it, it isn't as if you don't have the same periods in your life.  It is exactly what life is all about.  There isn't a single one of you out there that hasn't lost someone or has similar things happening in your life right now.  So instead of hating, try relating.  Much less negative.

Thankfully I love my job, even though it is stressful at times.  I am grateful for a paycheque so there is no issue on that end.  Sports injuries....well they have come and kept coming in 2011.  L1 disk hernia, torn achilles...you name it, I survived it.  No more injuries.  I will prevail mother fuckers!!

Going to focus on health, wealth and family this year.  Not necessarily in that order.  ;)  Will try to take a positive spin on things but no promises.  So if you don't want to hear the truth, don't ask (or read).  Wishing you all the best for the year of the Dragon.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Love your blog Cor. It is only the bravest that write the truth. Keep that in mind. I'm happy that you keep on keeping on and look forward to continued reading and the odd comment here & there in 2012. ~christine~